I have talked about being JAM before here. Repetition on this topic will inevitably happen, as Cherry Tree Lane serves as an online journal of sorts, so thank you for indulging me. Seeing as my friend and I had a 2 hour long conversation about this the other day, it has been on my mind and I, once again, assessed how I was feeling.
I feel like the whole thing has been a metamorphosis for me. Going from working mom and being totally overwhelmed, to staying at home but trying to start a very modest business and still feeling overwhelemed….to now.
I hit my stride.
I’m totally JAM’ing on it. And loving it.
About 3 months ago I woke up, sat there and realized that I needed to set aside my hopes for building a business. For me and my mind, I needed to put that thought into a cute little package and tuck it away in a drawer for a later time. If I try and “kinda” start building Cherry Tree Lane, I will let my mind go there and it will begin to slowly become a priority again. For me…that isnt going to work. I need to be focused right now on JAM’ing on it and leaving the door opened to Cherry Tree Lane would only serve to distract me. I’m a person that needs parameters, in which to dwell.
I will peal away the ribbon on CTL at another time. I will dive in head first. But for now, it will sit in my drawer. So I can focus.
Focus on making Halloween costumes, cooking dinner, doing laundry and using phrases such as “good choice” and”because I said so”, investigating home schooling and natural childbirth, growing a vegetable garden and washing dishes. Making playdates, going to the zoo, swapping recipes with girlfriends and discussing “mommyhood” with other bloggers, making lunches, learning new things, putting in pigtails and comforting a crying baby.
My stride has been hit. Im enjoying JAM and continuing to throw myself into it whole heartedly. This season has been perfectly designed for me and I want to seize the moment and enjoy being JAM…while I can. I know it will be gone soon.
Miss K likes baths and ice. So I made colored ice in ice-cube trays (water and food coloring, people) and threw it into her bath last night.
This face occurred after holding the ice too long.