I used to want to be Ashley Judd. I think she is classically beautiful, carries herself well and her hair always looks nice (because, who doesn’t want nice hair…?). She’s slim, has good skin and smiles all the time. I wanted to be her. She’s my type of “perfect”.
As I have gotten older, I have shifted in what I “want” to be. My desires to be something are no longer centered around the idea of looking good (although I appreciate someone who “maintains”…I’m not going to lie). My desire to be a woman of God is my focus now. Not that I don’t become enthralled with the idea of being thin with perfect skin…..I’m a woman in 2009-hello! It happens.
But my overall focus is different now.
My friend Nicole spoke last semester at our MOMS group about the Proverbs 31 woman. Of all the discussions we have had as mothers….it was the one that stuck with me the most. Simply because it is what I WANT to be. In a culture where the emphasis is always placed on the outside, this passage sits in stark contrast. I think that is why I love it so much. It values all the things that our culture disregards. It values the things that are important to the Lord. Proverbs 31 is my manual for worthy living, as a woman in this culture. Something to aspire to.
Naturally, I was pretty excited when my friend Terri emailed me last week and asked if I would like an “old cross stitch” she has made in 1986 of Proverbs 31. I said, “YES!”. I hadn’t seen it, but I knew that I wanted it. At church yesterday, she pulled it out of her car and I almost started to cry. I think it moved me because 1.) how intricate the detail was and 2.) how perfectly timed this gift was.
God is so gracious to us.
So….I now have a 16 by 20 cross stitch of Proverbs 31 that I want to turn into something. I’m not sure what to do with it, so let me know if you have ideas. It was in a wood frame/matte that weren’t exactly my taste, but I just love this piece. Thank you, Terri. Thank you soooo much.
It will be a daily reminder of the person I want to become.